As the Snow Falls

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It’s funny how things change from day to day; dreams, wishes, ideas, mindsets, even peoples social status’ move up and down like the rolling waters of the rough, cruel winter ocean. Today, I haven’t really changed, my political views the same, thoughts on life the same, person i like the same, and my desires the same.

Currently I want sleep as a new born pup wants its mothers milk; not only do I want that sweet sip of relaxation giving way to the world of dreams but, apperently I need it. Today in school we spent over an hour listening to a man explain to us the necessities of a good nights sleep. He’s world renouned, a proffessor at some big wig college that all us overachievers dream to go to someday, and he told us that teenagers should get 9.25 hours of sleep a day- almost three hours more than my average. He explained how lack of sleep can enhibit many abilites necessary for when you’re in school, and life in general. Apperently motor skills are affected- completely explains my clumsiness.

During this entire thing, I spent my time ‘cuddling’ with my boyfriend, the word cuddling in quotes because you can’t really cuddle with over 700 people, faculty included, around you. Alex is a great guy. We both do this winter program together called ‘backcountry.’ Our school requires people to do a sport, or some athletic excersize in replace of the normal gym class and in my opinion I belong to the best one. With around 13 people beloning to this club, we are all

View from on Mt.Greylock

Backcountry's trip up Mt.Greylock

misfits in one way or another- not quite misfits, but we don’t fit the ‘norm’ around our school. Many of the people are cityslickers who despise walking through the woods, or up a mountain. They think of the hard hike up instead of the astounding view on top, the icky mud instead of the wonderous beauty of the world- us nature-lovers embrace the earth as it is without the roads and common necessities that we take for granted. If 2012 actually happens, then we will be the ones who’ll survive.

That trip up Greylock, our most recent expedition, deprived me of my weekend sleep-in but gave me something else. Not only am I blessed with the wonderful view, but it’s also the trip that Alex and I really bonded. We hiked up a mountain together, watched Star Wars (:, and even played connect-four. It was on this trip where we started cuddling, before then we had both talked to eachother and i had suspected he liked me, but I wasn’t sure.

No one really suspected us to be together, as only the people in backcountry had seen us around each other. Alex isn’t the cutest guy on campus, but he’s nice, funny and puts up with my sillyness- which is the thing for me that counts the most. As you grow up, guys, you will tend to find that you don’t have to be the most attractive to get the girls- all you have to do is become their friend, make them laugh and really appreciate you. I usually fall for the one who becomes my friend, instead of the one who looks the best, because usually (I know I’m stereotyping) they are the ones who are just in it for some action and not commitment. The guys who don’t come by girls who are willing to go with them as easily are the ones who will hang on to them, and appreciate them more than dreamed.

Life lesson for the day 😀

Life.

Posted on: January 18, 2010

Let us die young, or let us live forever

We don’t have the power but we never say never…

As I lay here, my heavy eyelids drifting closed as my fingers dance around the keybord, I am onslaught with many memories; the ones that count. I remember the special moments, with that special someone; the spots in time when it never seems like the laughter will end and you are forever entangled in a world of happiness. But as always, the moments where the world surrounds you with darkness and yyou feel alone even though there are dozens of people ready to surround you with love and care. This blog, to me, is a way to not only express my feelings on paper but to provide someone entrance into a teenagers mind. As you are reading this entry, your first thought might be ‘I experience that every day’ but I can honestly guarentee that you don’t. No one knows how I feel, what I know, nor what I think. I am a teenage girl on a scholarship at a  boarding prep school who isn’t the preppiest person you will meet. I’m not the prettiest girl in the dorm, nor am I the richest. I am the one who grew up with all sides of the story and because of that I see a point in every persons argument. Not only am i writing this blog for you to read, i am writting this so one day, far away into the future I will be able to remeber my thoughts and that openminded sense that comes with being young. I don’t want to forget this feeling by becoming lost in my own little world- although that may be the easiest thing to do, it is not at all what I want.

And with that, I bid you goodbye and wish you a safe and wonderful internet experience (: